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A few years ago, I had the pleasure of meeting and working with a group of Indian (Hindu) women in a small preschool. While they were educating their children, I found there was a lot I had to learn as well and I grew to really love these women and children. I'm a little nervous about sharing this one. I may have gotten facts crossed with others. Just know, it is my hope to honor these people as I write this because they're close to God's heart as much as any one of us are.
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Children crowded through the door as though each believed
someone would decide there was plenty on the plane and slam the door on the
rest. A dimpled fist wrapped around Semony Dilhon’s wrist. Turning to shoo the
person attached to the wrist off, she found herself staring into a soggy face
half her height. Curls plastered against the girl’s face, green goo stretched
from her nose to her chin. Eeewww…
Semony clenched her fist. The desire to jerk her arm away from the snotty mess
next to her grew with each sniffle and dripping tear. Instead, rolling her
eyes, she moved forward as the others pushed in behind her.
Why don’t they say
something? She glared at the grownups with clipboards.
“Semony Dil-Dil hon?” the woman, called Miss M.—because her
name was long and difficult—barely looked up.
Semony chewed her tongue. Couldn’t anyone pronounce her name
Apparently she was expecting something. “Semony.” She
glanced around, before locking eyes with Semony. “Ah, I remember.”
She waved Semony ahead and another, older child, showed her
to her room. A quick look around confirmed Semony’s fear: no safe place to
hide.A bunk and a twin bed hugged the
walls opposite each other. If she’d had a choice, she would have stayed home.
At least there she knew what to expect. Here, little slimy people followed her as
though she were their savior.
Well, I’m not.
She deposited her bag onto the bottom bunk, heaved a sigh,
and sank to the mattress. This wasn’t going to be anything that her rescuers
had promised. Death would be better. To follow her family into the grave,
security and comfort awaited her. But death denied her entrance. Even in
starvation, she begged for death but somehow she wasn’t found worthy. Maybe her
parents’ god wasn’t as caring as they’d told her. It could be they were
deceived as the soldiers accused.
That must be what happened. Their god didn’t see, and the
Hindu gods couldn’t help them because they turned their backs on them.
Semony vowed in that moment. Never make the gods angry. If
she must live, she would please them; make them know she has good karma.
Footsteps tip-tapped toward the door. A quick scan of the
room revealed no place to go. Another in the room would insist she meet their
gaze. But if she wasn’t seen…
She scrambled from the bed, slid under the bunk and pressed
her body against the wall. Four feet approached. One whimpering, another
consoling, Semony guessed who was in her room. Slimy-green-goo-nose-girl.
It was the woman who hacked her name.
“Semony, where are you dear?”
I am no deer.
The woman turned, sinking onto Semony’s bed.
Slimy-green-goo-nose-girl joined the lady. “Semony, are you hiding in here?
Come on out and meet your roommate.”
Pressing harder against the wall, Semony wished she could disappear.
Her face burned. She wouldn’t allow anyone to see her weak. Her breath came in
shallow whispers. If the gods loved her, Miss M. would leave her alone. If the
gods loved her, slimy-green-goo-nose-girl would stay away from her.
“Listen, Amelia.” Miss M. stood. “I’m going to see if I can
find Semony. You stay here. Everything will be all right.”
“Y-ye-es Ma’am.” Sniff.
No. Don’t stay. You
can’t stay. This isn’t right. Semony knew, they weren’t supposed to be
together. The girl—Amelia?—was obviously not
Hindu. She couldn’t possibly be Semony’s roommate. It would make the gods
unhappy. Wouldn’t it?
was kind to the infidel girl, the gods would look on her with kindness. No. Only those born Hindu were chosen,
special, to serve the gods. Those not chosen to be Hindu must have made the
Semony may only be thirteen but she felt, and others said,
that she had a mature grasp of their faith. No one could convert into or out of
Hinduism. They’re chosen. Their fates are sealed. To try and deny this truth is
to question the gods. And no one questions them. Turning their backs on the
gods is what brought trouble on her parents. Semony had to remind herself of
this. Her parents tried to leave, to make alliance with the Christian God. This
is why they are dead. She would remain faithful.
Clamping her eyes shut, she prayed. Please, help me be faithful to you. Help me to please you. I do not
want the same fate as theirs.
The moments ticked by. Semony listened; the room remained silent
then a sniff followed by ragged breaths. She rolled her eyes. She’s still crying? Ugh.
Would it hurt so bad to offer a sleeve, or a shoulder? She
didn’t have to follow their god. Wasn’t it part of their Hindu faith, to be
kind to others? Weren’t they a peaceful people?
Before she could move, Miss M. returned. “I can’t find her
anywhere. Come with me. You can stay with me until supper.”
“S-supper? I’m hungry.”
“Soon, my dear.” Her voice was kind, although Semony
hesitated to trust. She was, after all, a grownup, a Christian, and one like
those who led her parents away from their gods. Yes. Be careful with that one. Pulling back the hand she’d extended
when she considered leaving her hiding place, she waited for the two to leave.
Their voices faded, the door clicked. The room, once again,
was silent. She was alone again. Maybe she could stay here until they reach
their destination. What about being nice
to the girl? She screwed up her nose. Slimy-green-goo-nose-girl
… gonna be stuck with her until the end of this trip. Maybe I’ll stay here.
She rolled her eyes. How her mind shifted faster than a
see-saw she couldn’t understand. Her father laughed at her indecisiveness. Her
mother shook her head. “Make up your
mind, child. You’re making us dizzy.” Laughter in their home had been a
normal thing—something she could count on. No more. She must make up her mind
and hold herself true to it.
day grew long and the room darkened. “Lights out.” Miss M.’s feet lifted from
the floor. Semony’s heart groaned. She’d hoped to climb upon her bed. To do so
now would reveal her secret. She would never be safe again. Her stomach
grumbled, tattling on her resistance to supper time. How could she come out
then? It would have been as dangerous as now. She pressed her hands into her
stomach, hoping to squelch the angry tones threatening to expose her.
Music filled the room, a soft
cello caressing her ears until her eyelids drooped. Just five minutes, and I will feel better.
It's been a while since we've last spoken. I'm sorry. Like many, if not all, of us the best laid plans have a tendency to get derailed by life's incredible ability to intervene. How often do we look and say, "How did we get here? Why is this happening?"
I'm learning that God has a bigger story, a more profound plot, with greater impact capabilities than we can fathom. His ways are higher than ours.
I've been aware that a new season was about to unfold in my life. I've asked God if it couldn't be a season of rest. Them my heart began to stir. I wanted to feel that I was making a difference. That I was a blessing rather than needing to be blessed.
Surprise. The vehicle --life-- has dropped me off in the world of home care. It's quiet. Restful. Peaceful. And I am in a place once again of being totally dependent on God for my every move. I'm out of my element here. In another's home. Praying I can be a blessing to the entire family --not only the woman I have the honor of caring for.
Why tell you this?
Because detours are not our plan but can be -- and very well might be-- God showing up with a better plan.